If only wish lists were real

You know what I am really missing of late? Camaraderie.
Now don't get me wrong, I have some fantastic friends, some truly amazing friends, and some that i just like to get drunk with. What I really truly miss, and I guess never really had, is a group of friends who I can just be around all the time. So many other people I know are having day trips, or going for random meals, or just spending the day around a group of people and it's there every day thing, their norm. My norm consists more of sitting on my ass all day refreshing Facebook, logging onto my Xbox live account to shoot something, rinse, repeat. The joy.

I understand that a lot of people have prior commitments to other friends and tasks at hand, but why must I always be left in the dark. I'm free for most the time, I get on with most of my close friends other friends, would it be so difficult to invite me along now and then, or is that just me being annoying and self centered?

I don't really get to see many people at the moment. Once upon a time I was the person to know, I was THAT guy, the one with his finger in every social group, the one to invite if you wanted everyone else there. I'm confused as to what happened. suddenly I'm the one that's there, and is fun, but it doesn't really matter if I am or not. Now THAT is me being a bit selfish, but who isn't? Who doesn't like to feel wanted, nay, needed sometimes?

I have this guy, he is always saying he is like a brother to me, and credit to him, in his own way, he has been there for me, he kinda has this emotional bond to me that no one else gets from him. However, the rest of the time, he just treats me like dirt. That's not the kind of thing I want either!

Now, I had written a whole lot more to this, but my computer crashed and didn't save all of it. So this will do for now, most likely until another thought hits me later tonight.